march 28-30

its been a really hard few days. its been really stressful and i haven't had the energy or time to keep this up. but now i'm back on a fixed schedule of 4-midnight so i'll prolly be able to get back at it.

wednesday/thursday were living hell for me. i got in so much trouble for not really doing anything. the director of our show slash head choreographer for the company was in our rehearsal helping the new choreographer set some things. i went to rehearsal very quiet and inward, just the mood i was in. he started teaching us some stuff and i got frustrated cause he's stuff is really awkward so it was frustrating me. that in combination with me being quiet and inward apparently resulted in a VERY offensive vibe towards him. i didn't know. i asked another teacher for help with one step and that pissed the head guy off and he left the room. he went into casting and told the lady in charge that he never wanted to see me again and has never been so disrespected in his life. keep in mind, this is the short brief version. she came to me later and sat me down and asked me what was going on. i was clueless and then she informed me of everything. said that everybody is talking about my weight, and the head guy is done with me. this went on for a while. anyways, skipping forward... went up to him the next morning to apologize for my "behavior" and told him i never meant any disrespect or anything. he said "when i'm in the room its all eyes on me. and you didn't give me that". i was floored, where in my contract did it say that??? whatever, i let him tell me what i did wrong and kept apologizing and then he said i was fine. we did a run for all the company and head honchos from seattle and they loved the new show. all they said about me was to keep my hair outta my eyes.

its been really hard with all this weight SHIT and drama for no reason. we started a new show yesterday, friday, and its gonna be really really fun. its all 50's and 60's music, like a jukebox. its lots of tricks and tumbling and period dancing. its so fun so far. and i deposited a few pay checks so hopefully all that bank drama will be settled. mom, i get paid again friday so then you can pay sprint....i think.

love you all, i'm sick and full of mucus. its pretty hot.

bye