that tower was a leanin

Pisa, Italy. That’s where my sweet ass found itself today. Haha. We jump on a crew tour bus, drive 40 minutes from Livorno straight to Pisa. Along the way we see farmland, hookers, Pisa in the distance and lots of Italian words. We get to pisa, walk through streets of souvenir shops, walk through an archway and there she is. HOWEVER, there’s a baptistery, a giant chapel, an indoor cemetery(I can’t think of the word but its huge and lots of big boxes, the English language is escaping me right now and I hate it), and the leaning tower. We all go running, disregarding the signs to stay off the grass and the photo shoots begin. We had pictures holding the tower up, pushing the tower over, kicking the tower, tumbling in from of the tower, laying down pretending the tower was in us or coming out of us, and then just smiling pictures. That took about an hour. We walked around and got some suveniers and stuff, walked around the grounds and then came home. The tower is really really cool….and its really really leaning. Kinda nuts actually. Its also really really clean and it looks new. It doesn’t look old like in Rome and Athens. Looks like it could have been built a few years ago. But yeah, its so awesome to think I was in pisa today. Nuts.

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got a hair cut, manicure, ate some chocolate, did some master chef, worked out a little, going to the leaning tower of piza tomorrow. fin

standin on the Rock with some monkeys

I was in Gibraltar today. The place with the rock. And the monkeys. We walked up the hillside town to go ride the cable cars to the top, got in line, heard it was gonna be 50 bucks round trip so were like HELL NO. at that exact time a van came speeding up to us, the driver got out and gave us his sales pitch for a bus tour of the mountain. We would save 3 dollars, the tickets were included, and instead of taking 4 hours it would only take us 1.5. we also go to see things the cable car people didn’t get to see. We saw caves(not nearly as impressive as the Carlsbad Caverns in new mexico, but everybody else was still impressed), we saw tunnels mined into the side of the rock for fort purposes with like cannons and stuff, we saw a Moorish castle and most of all we saw MONKEYS, lots of wild monkey that would just be laying around. They apparently steal things and bite people and do crazy things but I guess they were tired today cause they were just layin around. It was pretty cool though, on one side was Spain and the Med, on the other side was the Atlantic ocean and then off in the distance was Africa. It was so freakin cool. I learned that Gibraltar is a little peninsula type thing that juts of the south of spain and that it’s a brittish province. Comparable to puerto rico and the usa I think. Oh well it was cool.

Janelle is still acting weird and everybody is kinda over it. Andrea has gotten in trouble every day of this cruise and so its really just the 8 of us. As it should be. Sometimes you just don’t have the energy to put up with crazy people.

update from last night

so an update from last night. turns out i left and crazy spent the night in the bar crying and talkin to anybody who would listen. apparently she brought up rehearsals in LA and all this shit that has nothing to do with her butting into my converstation and misinterpreting what i was talking about.

on a lighter note, the new girl got everybody in trouble today. stupid slut. she goes up to the club hal oasis area. its a giant waterfall lagoon type place on the top of the ship for teens only. only teen passangers and club hal staff are allowed there. NOT US dumbass. she goes up there to lay out and one of the teens walks up to her and asks her if she works on the ship. she goes, "do you" he said no and she goes "well i do." rolls her eyes and puts her ipod back in her ears. so now a ship wide email is going out banning anybody not a passanger from the area. thanks bitch, thats 3 things you've gotten taken away from us since you've been here. and by taken away i really only mean gotten in trouble. i was exagerating a little. sorry.

tomorrow we'll be in Gibraltar. can't wait. i hear they have monkeys that steal things.

i've lost the energy to deal. but i went to Vigo, Spain today

So, the crazy girl. Not the new girl, but the old crazy girl. I’m sitting in the officers bar tonight, minding my business, having some drinks with some band members and crew staff, shootin the shit, comparing gross stories about old people. Kevin G, the drummer starts talking about the girls in the cast and was saying how he doesn’t have a nickname for shaunacy. Shaunacy, along with the rest of the cast calls him Kevin g but he doesn’t have a name for her. I told him to call her Deborah. It’s a long story but its funny. He was like ok, what about kim. I said call kim kamita jo. Whatever. Then he says how kim is the best girl on the stage and she just brings it everytime. I said I know, you should see her during this number in our new show called queen of the night. She dances like janet Jackson who’s middle name is damita jo……which is why we call kim kamita jo. Get it? Ok. So we’re talking about kim and shaunacy. I said they sleigh that number. They are the ones to watch. So JANELLE, the crazy girl, is over across the bar with her boyfriend and she was like “he acts like I cant hear him.” She stops my conversation and yells over I can hear everything you’re saying jeb. I said, what exactly am I saying. (at this point, her boyfriend who never stands up for her just looks at the ground and takes himself out of the situation). She goes, that shaunacy and kim are the best ones to watch during queen of the night, I can hear it all. I looked at her and said I don’t have the energy for you, looked at my group of friends and said she’s crazy and I walked out of the bar. Basically this crazy girl is, well, crazy. She’s insecrure and earlier events this evening heightened that emotion and now she thinks I think she sucks. I never said that. If I was gonna talk about her I was gonna say how she rushes everything and shaunacy and kim do it the best. Even the choreographer of the show talking to shaunacy and kim. Whatever. That bitch is crazy and I swear to god if she says one word to me I will lay into her. I’m done y’all. I’m celebratin no more drama in my life.

Anyways, today me jeff and kim walked around Vigo, Spain. Its this hillside, seaside town that is really cute and old looking. We had some sangria, ate some sardines, and then went back to the ship to lay out. Then later that night the cast went up to the crow’s nest and did some country line dances with the passangers, Janelle got insecure cause we showed up late and she was there by herself, got mad at nitty cause nitty was annoyed with her. And this was all after Janelle had words with the new girl andrea and pulled my name into it. This is what lead up to tonight drama…..that and some wine. ‘nough said.

sweet sweet PARIS

The 23rd of August. Emphasis on 23. the number that is evil. If you’ve seen the movie 23 you’ll know why, if not, go rent it. So we wake up at 6 to go to paris. There’s about 16 people going to paris from the ship. Madness. We get to paris and split into two groups, those going to the Louvre and those who have never been to paris and going to see the sites. Our first stop was the Arc de Triumphe. Holy shit that thing is huge, and right in the middle of nowhere. It was pretty sweet, we walked under the 5 lane circle drive and got up under it. Turns out it’s a memorial to the unknown soldiers. I’ve notice nearly every country has one. Thoughtful. But yeah, so we did that and then headed to the Eiffel tower. That is one of the few monuments that’s as big as you think it is. It was crazy and the line to get inside of it was over 2 hours. And seeing as how we only had 4 hours to see paris we didn’t much have the time for that. After that we bought an all day pass for the metro trains. We took that to the catacombs. This place was crazy. Turns out during the late 18th century paris had run out of room to bury the dead so they used this underground quary to put the bones. Over 6 million people were reburied or buried here. They arranged the skulls and tibias to make a wall and then just threw the rest of the bones behind them. The whole thing was just bones and skulls, over a kilometer long and 30 meteres below the ground….i think. After that we jumped back on the train and went to Notre Dame. Oh yeah, before that I stopped and got a crepe…had to. So yeah, get to Notre Dame and its f-ing huge too. These people were not subtle. It was cloudy and rainy all day so the stained glass wasn’t as brilliant as it could have been but that cathedral was massive. I can’t begin. So AFTER THAAAAAAAAT jeff and I headed to see the Moulin Rouge. That’s right, the original. It was pretty sweet, located in essentially the sex district. Took some sweet action shots and then headed back to the train. That’s where the drama begins.

Turns out the train station at the port…2 hours from paris….passed out expired train schedules so when we go to get on the 3:50 train back to the ship its not there. There’s not a train coming till almost 5. it’s a two hour train ride and all aboard is at 6:30. you do the math. We get a hold of the port authority after about 30 minutes of panic and they arrange to get us taxis at our home port to get us to the ship faster and after about 1.5 hours into our homeward bound train ride they let us know the ship is going to wait for us. Imagine the stress level before that point. We get on the train but have to split up because there aren’t enough seats. We get to La Havre, our port, and get off the train to meet the rest of our group. They aren’t there. We look everywhere, they aren’t there. NOWHERE. Finally we can’t wait any longer, we have no taxis for us, they all left so we have to wait even longer for a taxi. Finally get one, there’s 7 of us, we’re missing about 7 others, so we head to the ship. Turns out the rest of them bolted off the train took the taxis and made it back to the ship. We got to the ship at 7:15, they are ready to pack up the gangway. We get in, the NEWcruise director (who has quite the reputation) pulls everybody but me cause I already went to my room to her office to hear the story and says she’s gonna go fight with the captain. He wants to give us PINS (basically a bad thing) but she’s going to fight. The others…shaunacy, new girl andrea and the other people are already changed and chillin in their rooms. We all meet in the hallway and were like what the hell. They figured it was just a “fend for yourself” situation DESPITE us saying we all need to stick together. The ship won’t leave if nearly 20 crew members are missing. But I guess that never crossed their minds. I was very stressed out and let some smart ass comment about self-absorbed people come out of my mouth and felt bad cause it wasn’t necessary. I went to the gym to relieve some stress and came back to apologize to shaunacy cause I actually care about her. I could give two shits about andrea. I start to apologize and shaunacy jumps in and starts telling me how offended she was. I cut her off and said I’m trying to apologize, let me apologize. She doesn’t I go to leave, she stops. I tell her it wasn’t necessary for me to say those things and it came out of stress not anger and despite the situation we all made it back ok so its not a big deal. She finally said it was ok and thanked me and I left awkwardly. Guess its gonna take another few weeks before she’s cool with me again. The cycle continues. And now we’re leaving 30 minutes late and the waters are rough. I swear man……this day

Lesson of the day: the French are ugly, maybe that’s why that hate Americans so much.
Lesson two of the day: I’m tired of always thinking about others in situations like this. It only pisses me off cause some others don’t. Only a few of us actually take the time to think ahead of the next second.

p.s. I’m still stressed out, I’m just worried whats gonna happen. The whole ship is already talking about it. I can’t wait to see what gets taken away from the cast this time.

on my way to paris

i'm going to paris tomorrow. as in france, not the one in texas. although sometimes i'd rather be in texas. in the mean time i'll talk about the new girl that i don't like. she smokes, drinks, sleeps around, talks shit, backstabs, and tells stupid random 3 sentance stories, she's lazy, not a good dancer, kinda pretty, and basically made up her mind she's not gonna get along with us so we're just leaving her alone. thats all. i miss jes and jenn....the originals.

Berlin/Aarhus/bastard gay man

Yesterday I went to Berlin, today I went to Denmark. I’ll begin with Berlin

Who would of thought I’d ever make it to see Berlin. We woke up at 6 and jumped on a train, a 3 hour train ride through the countryside of Germany. I never would have thought Germany would be so pretty. It looked like a fairy tale. I felt like I was in Hansel and Gretel or Harry Potter. There were tree lined railroad tracks that would suddenly open into wide lush green meadows. There were windmills in the distance and tall wispy grass blowing in the breeze. It was so pretty….3 hours pretty.
Once we got to Berlin we got out of the train station and there was part of the Berlin wall. We spent some time there and then walked down towards the Brandenburg gate. I spelled that wrong but you know. We could see it in the distance which is the only way we knew where to go. On the way we came across this park full of buddy bears. Buddy bears are hand painted bears from every country in the world holding hands. Its kinda like the bulls in Chicago only they mean something profound. We spent a good while there taking pictures and whatnot, and like a true American, I took a picture with the America bear holding my starbucks cup. We finally found a starbucks and it was amazing. OH and then we tumbled and stuff in the grass. We gathered a small crowd and it was fun. We got some cool action shots of me doing a toe-touch and me and jeff doing side by side back handsprings. Its pretty cool.
So after that we continued on our journey. Right before the gate was this massive holocaust memorial. It was rows and rows of rectangular blocks of different heights. The ground was rolly so it made it look pretty cool. We ran around in there for a while. P.S. the whole city seems to be a memorial. Berlin does not want to forget what has happened in the past. There is a line through the whole town that shows where the wall was. I learned that the wall wasn’t a single wall. It was 2 walls with a narrow alley in between and it wasn’t straight through the city. It was all over. AND I didn’t realize it went up in the 60’s. I figured it was more around the war. Who would have thought something almost 50 years ago would be so profound. I had to keep reminding myself this was all the recent past.
After that we went to the big gateway and took lots of pictures……and bought souvenirs. Then we walked across the street to the big rystock or something. its essentially the capitol building. Then we walked through some other memorials, ran into some of the tour busses from the ship and kim shaunacy and Stacey jumped on and went to a concentration camp. The rest of us just walked around some more and headed home.
Berlin was definitely an amazing city. I wanted a few more days to really see and experience everything. I want to go back. The end
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Today we were back in Aarhus, Denmark. This city has the most gorgeous people on the planet. It never lets me down. The entire group went to LegoLand for janelles birthday except me shaunacy, mashawn, and the new girl andrea. Mash just slept, me and shaunacy snuck off the ship(we technically had ipm) and I have no idea what the new girl did. She’s dating like 5 people on the ship including a passenger. I don’t have time for her. Anyways, me and shananc went looking for a birthday present for Janelle but EVERY store was closed cause its Sunday. Damn danes. But they’re still pretty so I forgave them. We ended up just walking around town and came across a stairway that seemed to head to a gorgeous park. We get to the top and it turns out to be a cemetery. But this ain’t your American cemetery. It looked like the botanical gardens. Aspens, birch, pines, magnolia trees, flowers, shrubs, large green lawns. It was stunning. And the tombstones aren’t in row and row. They are all grouped by family in little mini gardens. Each family planted and decorated their plot themselves. Some had statues, artwork, little benches. It was so interesting. I also learned that they are able to do this because they burry each member on top of the next to save space. But some plots were just the gravestone or no more than 4 feet long. Others looked like the king of denmark was buried there. Needless to say it was really neat to see and learn about other customs. I guess this little cruise ship job is showin me a lot more than how to make shitty dancing look good. Haha.

p.s. I’m very sorry for the short choppy sentences. I feel like a 3rd grader typing this out but my mind goes too fast to make full sentences. My bad

Lesson of the day: the old jewish gay men from new york are disgusting on this ship. Just cause I’m a dancer who’s gay doesn’t mean I like to go to gay cinemas or backrooms or sex clubs, NOR does that mean that I want to talk about my sexuality with some 60 year old fat queen. And also I will not be doing highkicks on command so you can stop asking for that as well, especially if you leave our shows half way through. Got it missy. Stupid gays, times have changed. Not everybody is a fag. Oh and one more thing. Don’t think I like musicals and liza just cause I dance. I happen to be very well versed in the acadamia world so don’t act so surprised when I correct you on your historical knowledge….asshole. fucking eat a carrot and do a crunch or two.

101

So keeping this blog interesting has failed. There’s just not much to talk about these days that is either funny, bitchy or, well, interesting. We have less than 2 months left and we’re on our last Baltic cruise. We head back to the med in a week and then we’ll end in Venice. I might go into berlin in two days. So I might have a story. I also plan on going to paris, Egypt, and rome again. But that’s not till September. And in October we go to Israel. So the fun stuff might start happening then. Other than that it’s the same old shit. Going to the gym, dealing with our mood swings, getting to know the new girl(which there’s not much there), eating, calling home and checking on my sister and drew and matt(life is hard sometimes), and thinking about my dog dude’r and how I’m gonna dance for kylie minogue…even thought peter, our lead male singer, said that nobody in this cast will amount to anything except Natalie, our lead female singer. All im gonna say about that bullshit is that he doesn’t know we all know he said that(he was talking to 2 people and then the rest of the cast found out) and when it comes up its gonna come up and I hope to be in Australia calling him long distance from kylie’s dressing room. Maybe I’ll put her on the phone just to rub it in. and that’s where this entry stops.

p.s. I just found out Kaitlin O’hagan is on the dance faculty at OCU. I can’t deal

my 100th posting

just bought the Kylie Minogue "Showgirl" tour video from 2005 for 5 dollars in Russia from a shed back behind the customs stand(black market baby) and here are a list of signs slash reasons i will dance for kylie before i die. i don't necissarily want to do the whole LA thing but i will for Kylie

1. she is 4'11" and my first partner lauren was that tall. that means i can partner her
2. my favorite music video has this whacked out guy in it, turns out he's on the kylie tour as well
3. said male dancer has a tattoo that inspired the one i just got
4. said dancer (Jason) does a lyrical solo in her concert. i do lyrical dancing
5. other male dancer in her show was wearing puma boots. i have puma boots
6. her dance stlye is modern/hip hop/abstract lyrical/a little quarky....just my style
7. the male dancers, 6 of them, dance in briefs, feathers, in the showers, and in running pants. all things i like
8. her costumes are made by John Galliano. Let's talk.
9. she had 3 blonde dancers in her tour
10. she likes men who look like men, not boys who look like men

see, this is why i will dance for kylie and why i need to go to the gym right now. byeeeeee

ouch

its crazy how in one moment you can go from the highest of highs to feeling like you got the rug pulled out from under you

mom, the last part has foul language but the first part is about the little mermaid

Today fulfilled a childhood dream. I got to see the little mermaid statue that inspired the fairytale and classic Disney movie.

So we’re in copenhangen and inbetween rehearsals me shaunacy kim mashawn Janelle and jeff sneak out and walk to the coast to see this little statue. We get to this place there there a moat, defense walls, an old cottage style town, a swamp (just like the kiss the girl scene) and ducks and all that stuff. It was crazy, we walk around…the wrong way…and then find out way to the statue. Its maybe the size of a small woman. Just this little mermaid perched on a rock right by the shore. She looks really sad and is kinda slumped over with her finned legs crossed and to her side. She’s a little fatter than the Disney version and looks like she’s crying. Maybe that cause in the real story she dies and prince eric isn’t NEARLY as hot. But it was nuts seeing it. I’ve wanted to see the statue since I learned in existed and today I finally got to see it. We jumped in the water, climbed the rocks and took our pics with her. I named her ariel.

Other than ariel it was a pretty uneventful day. Shit tons of rehearsals, boat drill, opening night bumper show and soon I head back to more rehearsals. At least they feed us right. Oh well, today makes the first day of a new cruise and that means only 5 more. I’m not counting down or nothing. Also and lastly, Ricardo left today. I just happened to see him leave the ship from the gangway and he blew me a kiss. I miss that guy. But he was wearing an ugly shirt so it made the goodbye less painful. It was gross…orange brown and white longsleeve rugby style shirt. Clearly he wasn’t thinking and had packed all his cute stuff.

P.S. here’s something i haven’t done in a hot minute…vent. So we’re on our changover with the new girl..basically blocking and putting her into to all the shows. 1st thing 1st, ho could be a little more on her game. 2nd and most importantly…WE HAVE TWO MONTHS LEFT. NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO COME IN AND TELL US WE’VE BEEN DOING THINGS WRONG FOR THE PAST 4 MONTHS. We were taught some of these shows by 8 different people and if you are just now realizing people are doing different things maybe you should just LEAVE IT THE HELL ALONE. Rehearsing 12 hours a day and then in the last hours of the morning getting told you’re wrong when you know you’re right really pisses people off. This is the case with the lovely Rotterdam cast. The majority of the notes of our last run tonight at midnight of our Broadway show were for us, not the new girl. The fuck man? Why did it take 4 months to realize we’re doing it differently. This is bullshit. I’m so irritated right now I’m on the verge of just not caring. We’ve had 3 changovers this contract and frankly that’s 2 too many. Each time a new teacher comes and reteaches certain parts. Adding an “and count” or holding a full count here and there really makes you go crazy and only makes things sloppier cause people usually don’t remember those pain in the ass fucking details. Mash has shut down and stopped talking to people. Shaunacy and kim are just annoyed, tired, and hungry. Nitty is on the verge of cutting a bitch. I’m to the point of just saying thank you and looking the other way. Or what I did tonight and joking tell the teacher to check the tapes and then she does and then the note I was given has now been taken back cause I was right or whatever. Jeff is just there. Peter still can’t really take a note but is over it. and stissy is pissy. We’re in the home stretch of this contract and the last thing we need is to be relearning the shows. That’s what I’m getting at. The end. I need to stop.

more rehearsals slash my ricardo leaves

Well andrea is here. She doesn’t blend with us at all. I mean we all talk to her and whatever but she has little side comments, always to me, saying things like “what is this cast like 5 years old?” just little stuff. But whatever, we have two months left and there’s no need to make a close friend. Don’t think its awkward or anything but she’s just not like us. She’s really hard edged and not a pretty dancer and all of us are goofy and let loose and are pretty. Its ok though. That’s all.

But today is one of the most depressing days OF MY LIFE. Haha. Ricardo leaves. He’s my straight boyfriend who has a girlfriend but is really in love with me…..so I tell myself. He’s really turned into one of my better friends on this ship so its really sad to see him go. He’s so nice and always asks about matt and never wants to do anything that would make matt mad, even if it means hugging. he’s so thoughtful. But he got upset tonight when I went to say goodbye cause he said he was really gonna miss me. We exchanged emails so I guess that will do until the next time we meet. But yeah, I’ll miss him. Its like when you’ve just graduated highschool and the summer is over and you’re all about to go to college. Its that feeling. You’re not sure if you’ll ever see them again but can only remember all the fun times. I guess this is the downside to ship life; you spend everyday with a certain group of people and then you all leave sporadically. But to make matters even worse, NEXT cruise marks the departure of Ferdinand and George…my other two favorite pinnacle boys. This is gonna be rough. Ferdinand always brings us free food, gives me new dance music, and takes such good care of us. This blows. Whatever.

Today we’ll continue blocking andrea into the shows but me shaunacy mashawn and kim are gonna try to sneak off the ship and see the little mermaid statue in Copenhagen. Hope we make it. Love you bubs

Lesson of the day: I like Burbury cologne cause its what Ricardo wears and I learned that I’m the guy people come to when they have something bitchy to say. Apparently its my sense of humor so people are drawn to me when they have something negative to say. That’s cool.

some russia and stuff. days of the past few

Here’s what I’m gonna do. I’m gonna talk to you about this little cruise we’re on right now…from the show’s point of view. First show was a full cast of 9 (the new girl gets here in a day). Second show of the cruise was done as singer show for one performance and a full cast of 9 for the second performance. Our second show of the cruise was done as a 8 person cast because I was labeled unfit to perform my duties because it was thought I broke my foot. After sitting out the shows and a series of x-rays they have found no break but don’t know why my foot hurts. Our third show was today, and mashawn was quarantined in his room for the next four days with some kind of virus so about an hour before the show we had to reblock the whole thing. That’s the 3rd reblock we’ve had to do this cruise and all right before the curtain comes up. I’m over it, but I finally got to do some sweet sweet fouettes center stage by myself. Haha. Gross.

But today and tonight was spent in St. Petersburg. We went to the church of spilt blood and the black market during the day. After the show we all went up to the sports deck (the top deck of the ship) and watched stacy sing in a band while the crew had a party. How rockstar is that…a party on top of a ship in the middle of st. Petersburg. It was so real world. It was fun. Then we got ready and went back to Metro club. The upstairs was closed, the floor with the male dancers so we all hung out in the hip hop/pop room. It was fun. We took some absinth shots (they set it on fire 3 times and you inhale each fumes, then you drink the shot and they put the glass upside down on a straw and you inhale the fumes again. It messes you up. I felt nothing. I’m a tank apparently. But it was fun. We just danced all night. My two dutch boyfriends Ricardo(pinnacle grill) and Mikael(housekeeper) were fun as well and we danced all night. I told them I don’t appreciate it when they talk in dutch around me because I can’t understand it. They then punched me and said to learn dutch. Great story eh. Thrilling. I’m bored. Anways, I’m gonna sleep for a long long time. Love you



August 6, 2007,

Ok, so I’m gonna tag team this entry and cover another day, today. We slept in, ate, went to the gym and then surprised Natalie with a dinner in the pinnacle for her birthday. It was another great meal full of wonderful things. Then we came back to our rooms, decorated the new girls room(her name is andrea) with all kinds of streamers ballons trash tampons a rock a diet coke can and pictures of Disney princesses. She’s gonna love us. She gets here in the morning and thus begins our 3rd changover of the contract. We spent the next 8 days rehearsing her into the shows. Annoyed I will be but at least hopefully we’ll have a full cast. Mashawn is still in confinement for something he doesn’t have anymore. He had the 24 hour flu he thinks but now he’s ok. Um, other than that things are you. Our lead singer is in a funk cause he hasn’t been to the gym and he’s being unnecessarily rude towards people so I’m givin him some distance till he comes out of it or goes to the gym, whichever comes first. What set me off was when I put a pic of a naked guy on the new girls door and covered his penis with a balloon and he got mad at me, scolded me like a 4 year old and told me to take it down because we didn’t know her. KEEP IN MIND THERE WAS A TAMPOON WITH RED MARKER ON IT ALREADY TAPED TO THE DOOR (a bloody tampon if you will). Cause THAT’S OK. Ew, I was irritated and clearly still am. It was stuff like that all night. He was a real downer at natalies birthday dinner. But I’m not here to vent so I will stop. I’m sure he’ll come out of it, just hope its before all the rehearsals begin in the morning. The end. Again.


August 7, 2007

Screw it I’m gonna triple team this entry. Andrea got here today, seems a little negative and is not like our cast at all but she’ll be ok. She just learned 5 shows in 12 days and flew halfway around the world to get here so I can’t fully blame her. She is however a smoker a drinker and rumor has it was a hussy on her last contract. Whatevs, I’m not judging. She looks like linsday lohans mom.

Also matt auditioned for Stiletto yesterday and he said it went really well. I got to talk to him for a little today and I’m calling him later. Makes me happy. In a perfect world we could do a ship together, travel the world and get paid. But whatever, I’m just happy he had a good audition.

Lesson of the day: this is like our 3rd changover (that means 8 hours a day of rehearsals. Gross) and that means that I have to smile for 8 hours. This is gonna be tough. Really there is no lesson. I’m sorry I labeled it a lesson. God, I’m a failure

watchin family guy

we're in wernermunde, germany. its a seaside town on the north shore of Germany. i went walkin around to the grocery and to look at stuff for drew and chad. i found nothing and on my way back ran into some of the assisant cruise directors and a musician and decided to jump on a train and go to Rostock. its a town about 20 minutes inland, college type town. we got there, walked around, found an h&m, bought some real cute underwear, had some subway, took some pictures, and then climed 200 steps up a body-wide spiral stone staircase to the top of a steaple/steeple/whatever at a church. it was really cool, it looked out over the whole town. did you like my use of commas. niiiiiiiiiice

i think the funniest part of the day was when i was eating lunch talkin to one of the assistant cruise directors and we were talkin about gays and kids. she asked me if i was going to raise my kids gay or let them be straight. i laughed inside and then said i would make them play sports and listen to musicals. sigh, some people.

lesson of the day: subway in germany gives you the option of cream cheese spread on your sandwiches, feta cheese, or sliced cheese. and once you drink a bottle of coke they let you return the empty bottle and give you 15 euros. thats great i think.

watching charlies angels

hey all. so yeah, boring as of late. went back to oslo, aarhus, and more ocean. ladida. tomorrow we'll be in Germany and i'm going to start looking for gifts for my friends. i'm tired of being selfish....for now. um. its august today and i'm starting a new thing for myself. i'm gonna save even more money and work out twice as hard. i figure there's no excuse not to right. but i will say i've lost significant flexibility in my shoulders since working out. i gotta get some ballet classes in me to stretch me out again, ya know. anyways, this is how boring it gets i'm talking about ballet while i'm cruising the 7 seas.

oh, here's a jewel. my bathroom floods, our doorway floods, and the three rooms next to me down the hall do the same. i talked to the cute housekeeper (only cute cause he's on a ship, not real life cute so no worries matty) and he put a work order in for us asap. he likes boys and i have given him the title of my housekeeping boyfriend. gotta make good with the crew cause they get you things for free. kinda like my pinacle grill boyfriend Ricardo, but i think we're on the outs cause his girlfriend and my boyfriend and stuff like that. details. anyways, so our hall is underwater and thats real cool. maybe we're slowly sinking. that could be fun

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p.s. love ya matt and mom slash dad i hope my package makes it in one piece

lesson of the day: if you ask an indonesian guy with a box of snickers for a snickers he may just grab your belly and laugh. that felt real good