April 3rd....positive vs negative

i'll start with the positive, maybe it will make the negative less so.

all the work is starting to show and my body is changing....its about F-ing time. glad my body finally decided to wake up. and i'm not as sick as i was. still have a sweet cough but at least the infection and pressure is mostly gone. and i'm at a really good place mentally, ready to get on that damn ship and go see the world.

negative. one of our cast members is a freakin drama queen but in the sense that she says she's always being ignored and nobody listens to her ideas and is always asking what is going on. WELL MAYBE IF YOU GOT OFF YOUR DAMN PHONE AND PAID ATTENTION TO WHAT WAS GOING ON YOU WOULD KNOW SOMETHING...BITCH. i'm at my end man. the other day i was asking what people wanted to do for easter and she called me out saying i didn't ask her and that we never listen to her ideas and she was being ignored. i tore into her. i had a sinus infection, a fever, and was laying down trying not to die and that bitch pissed me off. i told her what was up and that she is making shit up because we were TALKING about her idea and i didn't ask her cause the people i was asking talked to me earlier that day about that topic. dumbass. girl i was mad. anyways, so i was the one that confronted her for everybody else even though i'm not that confrontational. i let it cool off, she cried and immediatley got on her phone, SHOCK, and went up to her later and apologized for my language but that she needs to know people don't ignore her and she secludes herself by always being on the phone. i'm talking 23 hours of the day, no lies. well all be together walking somewhere and she'll be behind the group talking on her phone. but if you call her out on it she gets mad and cries. our cast is really really tight but this ho is about to cause a war. can't wait

also, we learned a dance tonight that an addiction to speed and cocaine couldn't cure. its so rediculous we all just stopped in the middle, sat in one hip, and glared at the teachers. its not their fault cause its not their choreo, i mean, they couldn't even do it, its jon charrons fault. you'll recognize him from previous posts. he's worse than kelli stephens y'all. every and count has a movement and the song is super speed. like that song wipe out, it ain't got nothing on this version of "good love". its an oldie, you older folk might recognize it from the car hops and drive in movies or whatever you did back in the good ol days. yeah, we learned it from 9-midnight. maybe not the best idea since the first 4 hours of rehearsal were spent doing NOTHING. should have learned it while we had a fresh mind and weren't so bitter. thats all i can say really, its getting me pissed just thinking about it.

oh i forgot, positive. finally got my leg spin today, doing a turn while my leg is by me head. its hot. and i did a backhandspring step out today for the first time...AND that jump blake did on so you think you can dance where you do a jump foward, grab your front leg, and when you land roll out of it. mom, i'm sure you know exactly what i'm talking about. haha. i'll show you when i get home or i'll send a video home. i'm tired and i'm going to bed

love you. the end