more rehearsals slash my ricardo leaves

Well andrea is here. She doesn’t blend with us at all. I mean we all talk to her and whatever but she has little side comments, always to me, saying things like “what is this cast like 5 years old?” just little stuff. But whatever, we have two months left and there’s no need to make a close friend. Don’t think its awkward or anything but she’s just not like us. She’s really hard edged and not a pretty dancer and all of us are goofy and let loose and are pretty. Its ok though. That’s all.

But today is one of the most depressing days OF MY LIFE. Haha. Ricardo leaves. He’s my straight boyfriend who has a girlfriend but is really in love with me…..so I tell myself. He’s really turned into one of my better friends on this ship so its really sad to see him go. He’s so nice and always asks about matt and never wants to do anything that would make matt mad, even if it means hugging. he’s so thoughtful. But he got upset tonight when I went to say goodbye cause he said he was really gonna miss me. We exchanged emails so I guess that will do until the next time we meet. But yeah, I’ll miss him. Its like when you’ve just graduated highschool and the summer is over and you’re all about to go to college. Its that feeling. You’re not sure if you’ll ever see them again but can only remember all the fun times. I guess this is the downside to ship life; you spend everyday with a certain group of people and then you all leave sporadically. But to make matters even worse, NEXT cruise marks the departure of Ferdinand and George…my other two favorite pinnacle boys. This is gonna be rough. Ferdinand always brings us free food, gives me new dance music, and takes such good care of us. This blows. Whatever.

Today we’ll continue blocking andrea into the shows but me shaunacy mashawn and kim are gonna try to sneak off the ship and see the little mermaid statue in Copenhagen. Hope we make it. Love you bubs

Lesson of the day: I like Burbury cologne cause its what Ricardo wears and I learned that I’m the guy people come to when they have something bitchy to say. Apparently its my sense of humor so people are drawn to me when they have something negative to say. That’s cool.