Day 10…..They just like saying my name, or because my shoulders are so fierce

OMG. Today. Lets talk. So we finished the show Hat’s Off last night and today we did runs and notes all day. All 8 hours. An hour long show full out in front of important people with smiles. Bullshit. It was really fun though. Except for this sweet burning sensation in my left hip. You know when you whip your neck real fast and it feels like a flame thrower has just ignited your ENTIRE neck and back….yeah, imagine that in your hip, like deep inside by your intestines. So that’s how my day started…

Fire intestines slash hip

Did the run, full out, only messed up a few times, smiled a lot and jumped my ass off for Russian. Its my favorite dance because the music is big and I get to do whacked out jumps and show ballet technique and it makes me feel like a good dancer as opposed to this other choreo that was apparently made up while under the influence of a serious hallucinogen or cocaine overdose resulting in the paralysis of the right side of the brain causing all dance moves to be AWKWARD AS ALL HELL. I digress. Anways, we ended the run, people liked it, got a few notes and talked to the two people that auditioned and hired me…kim and ken. Ken was telling somebody how flexible I am and how unexpected it is from just looking at me and how him and kim were laughing during my audition. I asked him why and he said because I was so sick it was funny that I was auditioning for a cruise. Not to sound cocky but that was really nice to hear. Its hard adjusting to bad choreography and when you struggle at it it feels good to here you are talented every now and again……..maybe all the time. Tell me I’m wonderful every second. Who am I kidding?

So yeah, dinner, notes, second run of the show. HOLY FUCK ME. I swear one of our teachers Scott had a whole page of notes just for me. I’m pretty sure it was labeled JEB: and then a bulleted outline of my mistakes. It got to be funny and you could tell i as about to get a note because they would pause before they said who it was for because I they had to compose themselves. I mean, I was giving them a hard time about it and finally was like “the other dancers should just dance like me cause I’m clearly catching all the attention.” We had a laugh. Then I said I should be dance caption because I’ve gotten so many notes that I know EXACTLY what we were supposed to do. Anyways, it was fun.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention that the burning searing shooting pain in my hip caused my whole left leg, the back of it, to go numb. Now it hurts. Wonder what’s going on in there. Maybe its like gonorrhea or something in my hamstring. These apartments are a little sketch ball change if you know what I mean.

Any ways, we start learning a brand new show tomorrow, its called showgirl and its with a new choreographer who has never worked with the company but has done stuff for MTV and janet and such. Its gonna be SOOOOOOOOOO cool. Its cool to think I’m gonna be the first MD to have this stuff set on me and know that whoever gets this show after me will have to do what I did. So I’m gonna try to make it tricked out and set my reputation with the company as being one bad ass fat girl.

Love you