some conclusions

I’ve clumped the last two day together for good reason. Basically I’m being passed around the pinnacle grill. Haha. Like a cheap asian hooker. Not really but its kinda funny these past two days.

Day one was in germany. I went out to lunch with Ferdinand and Ricardo. My boys. Jeff came too. We walked around the sea side town, watched some beach handball, saw a nudist 60 year old man in the ocean, saw a lighthouse, at some lunch, and talked for hours. I learned some dutch, talked about politics, and asked about their girlfriends. It was really fun. They went back to the ship and jeff and I stayed out for a little longer. We got a nutella creppe and came back to the ship. A little later me Natalie, stacy, peter, and jeff came back to that bar we went last time to watch Kristin play his songs. Had a good time. I walked around a bit before with peter and we saw a double rainbow crossing behind a church steeple. I took a picture under it posed like I was praying. I’m pretty funny. Came back to the ship, had a bratwurst on the walk back and then all met up in the P.O. a little later. That’s the petit officer’s bar for all you non ship linguists.

Day two. Get a call from George and Stefan to go to lunch today in Sweden. So we meet up and walk around in the rain, eat a pasta buffet (it was amazing), had some cappuccinos, and talked more politics and learned more dutch. Haha these pinnacle boys. Anyways, came back to the ship and now I’m typing this out. Learned some more trashy things about people on the ship. I’m glad I only crush on people cause after hearing who dated the last cast and who goes to bathhouses and saunas in ports, if I didn’t crush and actually acted, I’d be tragic like everybody else. They ship life is its own special things and I’ll testify to that. You get to see so many amazing things and have life changing experiences but at the end of the day you’re stuck with the same group of people the entire time and the easy ones just get recycled over and over again. I would have loved to have met somebody to take my mind off things but then I realized I don’t need somebody to do that and I’m thankful my few days of depression were just that, few. This contract has presented many challenging things and each victory over said challenges has made me stronger. Of course I hope I’m not doing things for the wrong reason but I have faith that I am not. I hope I haven’t been played this entire contract and the people I’ve met and the people in my life are being true and honest and not secretive or manipulative. I can only hope I’m presenting myself in the same fashion those close to me are.

Lesson of the day: eventually people come around and straight boys can make the best temporary boyfriends.