finally

I haven’t had an internet card for some time now and I won’t get one till the 30th…prolly the day I’m going to post this unless I can borrow a few minutes from someone. A lot of fun stuff and a lot of shitty stuff has happened these last few days but I’m only gonna touch on the good for now.

1. I finally got to see a part of Germany. We were in Warnemunde, Germany and it was about -2442 degrees, 40mph winds, and rainy. We went to a grocery store and bought chocolate and then to a bar to watch one of the musicians on board play a set. I’ll say this; the chocolate in Germany is superior. It just reacts to the heat of your mouth like nothing I’ve experienced. Even the junk chocolate by the register is divine. I’m gonna hopefully bring some home….if I don’t eat it first. Anyways, the bar we went to was called Sweet Home Alabama. Kristin the bass player was playing a bunch of his original music so a lot of us went to support him. His voice is so sweet. It’s very Dave Matthews, Sister Hazel, that decade of music. Great stuff, that and the beer glass as big as my leg made for a great evening. Dad, I decided on a German beer just cause I was there. I hate beer but this wasn’t too bad. I can’t remember the name but it was good. Looked like Rockstar but I know that’s not the name. He ended his set with our friend Scott and him singing sweet home Alabama. The place loved it. Crazy Americans

2. After rehearsing my ass off for the last 4 days, SHOWGIRL finally opened. With all the costumes and lights the show really stands on its own. All the negativity we had towards it was just an outlet for our frustrations. This has been a pain in our ass for the last 3 months. Everything was going against this show from day one. But as soon as that curtain opened and the audience gasped at the costumes we knew it was gonna be a good one. This show is very very stressful. Its one where you spend all your time changing costumes and not enjoying the performance but that makes it go by so much faster. Anyways, I’m gonna try to get a video of it so I can show y’all. Needless to say in the second show my latin suit broke, the lady in the front row started doing latin moves, and between those two happenings I forgot the dance and just kinda salsa’d in place. Haha. Douche. Anyways, I made up for it with my sweet double pirouette into and axle later on. OH YEAH. Doubles…..BORING.

3. We all got really drunk after the show. I’m talking messy drunk. I think what sent us over the edge was the 4th and 5th shots of tequila with triple sec. Or maybe it was the champagne, long islands, or cosmos. Who can tell. This new event corridinator on board is gay and he’s kinky I hear and he was hitting on all us boys all night long and then he goes home with the one cast member who has a boyfriend on the ship.(well, we think, we followed them only so far and then they disappeared. But still. Isn’t that tragic? That’s the lovely, trashy life I get to experience here. So after about 3 room parties, mashawn and I get bored and go running down on B-deck to see our “boyfriends.” They happen to be roommates, work in the pinnacle grill, and are straight. George is MaShawn’s and Ricardo is mine. Both from the Netherlands, George is bald, black, and gorgeous and Ricardo is tall, skinny but muscular and just cute. But whatever. We knocked on the door but they were asleep BUT the door was open. Haha. So about 3 trips later I had left a note and mashawn had videotaped us doing all sorts of stupid sneaky things. I haven’t seen Ricardo yet but I can’t wait. Haha. It’s gonna be awkward maybe. Or he’ll just fall in love and I’ll have a dutch straight boyfriend. Haha. Whatever, it’s all stupid. So after talking with jeff and mashawn about busch gardens people and kings island people, it was 7am and time for bed. Oh yeah.

4. I’ve slept all day and can’t wait to get paid tomorrow so I can get back on the freakin internet. I feel so detached. But in one aspect of my life I think that’s a good thing. I’m usually the first to make some sort of contact so now I can see if what was said was really meant. Guess I’ll see when I check my email.

Other than being tired I’m at a good place and I kinda can’t wait to get back home and get off the ship. I’m not bitter or jaded towards ships I just want to get home and get my life settled again before the next job. This has been the hardest thing I’ve done, this contract, because its pulled me away from the people that mean the most to me. I haven’t been near my sister, my family, matt and its really tested me a lot. I’m sure I’ll do another ship just to get school paid off but its so straining on my psyche and my relationships with others. I’m just so cut off on the other side of the world with no phones and shitty internet and I guess it’s too hard for some to deal with. I think this is the point of the day after drinking where you just get honest so I’m going to stop. I said I was only going to talk about the good things. And in a sense this last little tangent is a good thing cause in the long run it will prove beneficial I hope. Just hope I haven’t added fuel to the fire or utterly confused most of my readers. Haha. That’s the point. But for those who get it…I love you

The end. Tomorrow we’re in St. Petersburg again for an overnight and I think we’re going to a foam party. Yikes.